Day -6: Me and my octopus arm.

Day -6. I get admitted to the hospital tomorrow to begin the second stint of this ironman triathlon I call my treatment. I’m super excited to get this ball rolling so I can start moving towards being fully healthy again. Me and my octopus arm (my Hickman line, which I’ve had for 8 months now and is still annoying) are ready!

After a pre-admit appointment in the morning, I’ll go through the tedious process of being admitted and getting situated back on 11 Long at UCSF. Then in the evening I begin day one of a four day bout of chemo, followed by a single dose of total body irradiation on day -1, and then peripheral blood stem cell transplantation on day 0.

Excited actually doesn’t quite capture how I’m feeling. I’m a mix of ecstatic, prepared, and hopeful with a good twist of anxious and nervous. It’s a similar feeling to the day before the first day of school, when you’re rearing to go but also hesitant. But I’m ready, I’m here, let’s do this.

Over the past few days I’ve been getting things in my apartment in order and making sure that things are set up for when my mom gets here upon my discharge from the hospital. I’ve also packed up a good chunk of my life to take with me to the hospital. After all, I will be there for a month, so a brother’s gotta figure out things to do!

Aside from the regular stuff like toiletries, electronics, and comfy socks, I’ve made sure to pack up craft supplies, puzzles, and Halloween goodies! No keyboard this time because it was pretty bulky and I ended up not playing it as much as I would have liked.

Since Halloween will happen while I’m admitted, I’m bringing candy and supplies to make goody bags for the other patients on the floor. (I hope no one’s allergic to chocolate or peanut butter…). I’ll be hand crafting each bag and filling them with candy to distribute on Halloween; sort of like reverse Trick or Treating because the candy’s coming to you. I’m excited.

I’m also going to be a vampire for Halloween this year. I figure it’s the perfect costume because: A) I’ve never been a vampire, and B) If I could, I’d suck people’s blood all the time (since, you know, I’m pretty anemic). Just because I’ll be stuck in the hospital doesn’t mean I can’t have fun! 😀

I’ve been up to a few baking projects as well before going in. Croissants, fruit tarts, cookies, and cakes. I thought I’d share a few of them. #mincreations


Butter and jamon & gruyere croissants.
A true labor of love. It took 3 days to make these flaky, delicious puppies. I turned the spare croissants into croissant bread pudding the next day (no photos were taken; it didn’t last long).


Mixed berry and fig tart.
The last of the summer berries in a tart with pastry cream and a pate sablee crust.


Six layered chocolate peanut butter cake.
This puppy was made for a dear friend of mine’s birthday. Six alternating layers of chocolate cake, peanut butter, and peanut butter cream cheese frosting; iced with said frosting, topped with a dark chocolate ganache and Reese’s mini cup bits. I used an entire jar of peanut butter for it. It was a big as my head and so delicious!

With my last day of “freedom,” I’m doing laundry, visiting some of my favorite places in SF one last time, and finalizing all my packing. Round 2, here we go!


5 thoughts on “Day -6: Me and my octopus arm.

  1. Thinking if you, Love! You’re simply amazing. The way you share your love, and your light, is a true inspiration. Holding you in my heart.



  2. Learn to appreciate those difficult days. When you look back on life, they are the source of what make you stronger! Release you worries and fear to your family and friends! We are here for you.


  3. Min, I am working on halloween in the infusion center. IF you run out of goodies for the patients, let me know, I can bring some more in and bring it over to you! I am so glad you are going to make the most of it! You will make so many people happy! You are gonna rock this!!


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